What It’s Takes

Somehow..

It take us losing someone
That makes us realize the importance of loving dearly.

It take us giving up
That makes us realize the importance of fighting back.

It take someone betrayal
That makes us realize the importance of loyalty.

It take us hurting badly
That makes us realize the importance of healing slowly.

And somehow
It take us to experiences all of that bad thing
That makes us start to appreciate the goods even more.

Just because it’s bad. Doesn’t mean it’s useless.
So, stop hating or regret every bad thing that ever happens to you.
Only because they exist, that you can see the beauty of good things.
So being thankful for everything even it was unpleasant to be though.
It’s a lesson. Not some unfairness to make your life miserable.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

Self Conscious

Looking in the mirror,
Saw your own reflection,
And having a weird feeling about it.
It’s normal isn’t it? Or not? I think it is.
At a certain point in life, I guess everyone will always find something they dislike about themselves.
It didn’t help either when people around them kept throwing a dirty look. Judging their appearance and stuff.
That’s why someone once said ‘the hardest thing to do is loving yourself’. True indeed.
But here is a secret you need to know to make it easier ; You don’t need to feel self conscious about yourself. Especially not because of people. Wanna know why? Here I tell you. They also secretly struggle with themselves.
Some day they also hate how they look.
Other days they also try so hard to look good for others.
It’s totally normal. Feeling self conscious is normal. Because You’re NORMAL.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

For Once I Wish…

They always asking me
“Are you okay”
I wish for once they ask ‘what’s wrong’ instead.

They keep saying
“You can do it”
For once I wish they would say they will help instead.

They always telling me
“Never give up”
I wish for once they told me to take a rest instead.

They keep wondering
“What wrong with her”
For once I wish they were wondering ‘why is she acting like that’ instead.

For once. Just for once. Can you not? Interpret things just the way you see fit, I mean. It is nice sometimes to look beneath the surface and see what else you can find. Someone might desperately need that from you.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

Does it?

Sometimes we hate ourselves for who we are. For who we became. Or for who we cannot be.
So what that said about us as a person for feeling that way?
Does that make us pathetic?
Or does that make us worthless?

No it doesn’t.

Feeling something negative or feeling anything at all. really. doesn’t make us anything. Feeling is just that. Only a feeling. It doesn’t define who we really are.
In fact sometimes it does make us better.
It teaches us how to love ourselves.
How to accept the fact that not everything is beyond our control.
Basically it makes us human.
So don’t beat yourself too hard.
You just being you. And that is not a weakness. In fact it’s a strength, because believe it or not there is only one you in this world.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

Be Real!!

Some people….

“Why do you like this stuff!” or “Why do you dislike that stuff?”
“Why are you eating this!” or “Why don’t you eat that?”
“Why are you wearing this!” or “Why don’t you wear that?”

Helloooo….

Do you think they were you or what?
You can’t expect people to like what you like and hate what you hate.
Get real here. They ain’t you. They’ve their own person. They can do whatever they want. No need to comment on it or point it out if what they did didn’t tickle your fancy.
N not everything you thought needs to be said aloud.
It might be hard enough for them to struggle with their own choice. They don’t need you to add more.
Stop being so full of yourself. Get over it.
We’re different for a reason.
Different doesn’t make us weird. Differences make us whole. You can’t expect to complete a puzzle with the same piece every time do you?

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

The Aftermath #LosingThem

Losing a parent or anyone you truly love is miserable.
I wish nobody would go through that heartache.
But we have to be realistic.
Sooner or later it is going to happen to everyone.
It’s gonna happen to you. And it’s gonna happen to me. Again.
When that time comes around, i hope you know this.,
The heartache. The pain. It will never stop.
What they said about ‘time heals everything’ ‘you going to be okay’ n stuff is one big fat lie.
No. Time doesn’t heal everything. Time just provides temporary distraction.
And no. You are not going to be okay. You’re just going to be strong.
Some days, yes. you’re going to be alright. You don’t feel pain as much .
That’s because you tend to forget about them since you just used to live your life without them.
So if you don’t remember them for a certain amount of time, don’t feel guilty. That’s just how you learn to cope with the pain. By forgetting. It doesn’t mean they’re vanished from your heart or your love for them has disappeared for good, because I can assure you it doesn’t. True love always stay.
Other times, you will remember everything and the pain becomes unbearable to handle.
Also stop being regretful because you feel like you are not accepting your fate and move on. It’s not true. It has nothing to do with accepting reality, and everything to do with feeling and emotion. Which is not in our control all the time.
Whatever it is, I hope you know that even if everything doesn’t feel perfect without them anymore, at the end of the day, you are still gonna be alright because happiness still exists even in imperfection.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

Perfect?

We are all too caught up with the idea of perfection that we can’t see anything beyond that.

Everyone always says nothing is perfect.
We are quite aware of that.
But we all know deep down we still wish for that perfection.

Secretly, we all dream of having a perfect life.
We search for the perfect partner to get married with.
When we have our partner, we hope to have a perfect wedding.
And then we wait for perfect timing to do that.
Just like that the list goes on with everything our whole life.

It consumes us and when everything starts crashing down and doesn’t go ‘perfectly’ as we plan, we keep thinking that life sucks big time. When really it’s just you that decided to make it seem like it.

All this mindset about perfection shouldn’t exist at all. Everyone should know there is no such thing as perfect. The word itself doesn’t sound right.
Why not just replace it with the word right instead?

For example, instead of saying ‘I have a perfect wife’, why don’t you say ‘I have the right wife’.
It is much more meaningful when you put it that way.

Even if it is not ‘Perfect ‘, it is still ‘Right’. See what I am trying to say? Much better don’t you think?

Now I leave it to you to decide.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

Never Wrong to Feel

Some day you start your morning feeling great but end it pretty badly.

Some day you start by being so happy but going to sleep feeling sad.

Some day you wake up feeling motivated to finish your work, but later turn to bed with unfinished work still.

Some day during your morning you feel grateful with how everything in your life turned out, but going to sleep questioning what you did wrong when things start to fall apart.

And somehow it is never wrong to feel all these emotions because you’re human.

Your feeling is worthy of your attention even if it is not so positive.
Never doubt that.

Just don’t drown in it for too long

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

Never an Option

Do you ever feel stressed and confused about making a decision in your life?

You just sitting there,
in front of computer
feeling lost if you want to pursue study in business or law.

Or maybe,

You just staring there,
in the dark
when the world is sleeping
Undecided whether you should keep fighting or call it quits already.

With everything in your life. Really.

If so, you really should know this.

If you have no idea what your true choice is between the two options that you have, make sure to always choose the second one. After all, if you really want your first option, the second will never be an option.

Deep down,
Heart knows what the heart wants. Even if the brain is always arguing.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

DAD

Dear dad,
You don’t say you care about me but I know you are when you hug me tight every time I cry.

Dear dad,
You don’t say you trust me but I know you are when you let me make my own decision.

Dear dad,
You don’t say you’re proud of me but I know you are when I see that smile remain on your face.

Dear dad,
You don’t say you’re angry at me but I know you are when your frown doesn’t disappear for a while.

Dear dad,
You don’t say you love me but I know you are when you always protect me from everything that brings me harm.

Dear dad,
I’m your daughter. I wish you already know deep in your heart that for us you’re the best and we will always miss you.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra