Never a priority

Ever feel like you’re not good enough?
Like you doesn’t seem to get anything right.
And everything you did doesn’t really matter. Because at the end of the day, you will mess that up anyway.
So it keep nagging you everytime.
Stuck like that little pieces of gums under your shoes which you having difficulty to get rid of.
That probably because it’s really is. The self doubt i mean.
I think it will always stay with every one of us. Literally.
We obviously will never constantly feel that every second of the day. But it definitely will make an appearance every now and then.
So what I about to say might be helpful.
If we only give our attention to that gums only when it stuck and we try to get rid of, who say we can’t do the same when we feel all of that things about ourselves?
If the ‘struggle’ of removing the gums is the ONLY thing that requires our attention, that mean it’s never really a priority to us.
Likewise. If the self doubt only appear every now and then, and you only focus on it only at ‘that moment’, why you’re soo worry there’s something wrong with you? It’s really nothing to worry about. That feeling will comes and go as it’s please either we like it or not, but don’t give them power to corrupt your mind. The only thing you need to worry about is  HOW to avoid making them as your priority in life.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

Selfish

Selfish. Always view as a bad trait to have.
Question is,,
Does being selfish really unnecessary?
Honest speaking,
I don’t think so. Not entirely bad at least.
Certain things did required you to being selfish.
If it involved your own life, sometimes you just need to.
You can’t always put everyone first then put your own self aside.
Who say their life matter more than your own?
So, you don’t really need to feel guilty if you being selfish for your own good.
It doesn’t turn you into a bad guy.
For certain extend it still an OK.
Just in certain things tho.
Make sure you know where it start and where it need to end.
Remember. Everything has a limit.
But as long as it doesn’t really have any extreme affect for those around you, I say you’re good. No worries.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

Relax!!

You think you’re confident enough. However when time comes and you have to facing your audience, you’re shaking.

You think you’re brave enough to face any challenges. But when what you fear the most come knocking, you start to hide away.

You think you’re patient enough to keep waiting. However when one by one people passing by, you start questioning why it took so long.

You think you’re happy enough with all of your achievement. But when you see others become more successful, you create another goal to achieve.

You think you’re intelligent enough to solve any problem. However when some issues arises for you to handle, you’re can’t find any solution to fix it.

You know what?you over think!!
So what you say if you just stop for a second and just live in the moment. Go with the flow and have faith that life will turn out the way it supposed to be. Not the way you want it to be.

Let life do their magic. Nothing can go wrong with it in the hand of fate.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

What It’s Takes

Somehow..
It take us losing someone
That make us realize the importance of loving dearly.
It take us giving up
That make us realize the importance of fighting back.
It take someone betrayal
That make us realize the importance of loyalty.
It take us hurting badly
That make us realize the importance of healing slowly.
And somehow
It take us to experiences all of that bad thing
That make us start appreciate the goods even more.
Just because it’s bad. Doesn’t mean it useless.
So, stop hating or regret every bad thing that ever happen to you.
Only because they’re exist, that you can see the beauty of good thing.
So being thankful for everything even it was unpleasant to being though.
It a lesson. Not some unfairness to make your life miserable.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

Self Conscious

Looking in the mirror,
Saw your own reflection,
And having a weird feeling about it.
It’s normal isn’t it? Or not? I think it is.
At certain point in life, I guess everyone will always found something they dislike about themselves.
It didn’t help either when people around them keep throwing a dirty look. Judging their appearance and stuff.
That why someone once say ‘the hardest thing to do is loving yourself’. True indeed.
But here a secret you need to know to make it easier ; You don’t need to feel self conscious about yourself. Especially not because of people. Wanna know why? Here I tell you. They also secretly struggle with themselves.
Some day they also hate how they look.
Other day they also try soo hard to look good for other.
It totally normal. Feeling self conscious is normal. Because You’re NORMAL.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

For Once I Wish…

They always asking me
“Are you okay”
I wish for once they ask ‘what’s wrong’ instead.

They keep saying
“You can do it”
For once I wish they say they will help instead.

They always telling me
“Never give up”
I wish for once they told me to take a rest instead.

They keep wondering
“What wrong with her”
For once I wish they wondering ‘why she acting like that’ instead.

For once. Just for once. Can you not? Interpret things just the way you saw it I mean. It nice sometimes to look beneath the surface and see what else you can found. Someone might need that from you.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

Does it?

Sometimes we hate ourselves for who we are. For who we became. Or for who we cannot be.
So what that said about us as a person for feeling that way?
Does that make us pathetic?
Or does that make us worthless?

No it doesn’t.

Feeling something negative or feeling anything at all. really. doesn’t make us anything. Feeling is just that. Only a feeling. It doesn’t define who we really are.
In fact sometimes it does make us better.
It teach us how to love ourselves.
How to accept the fact that not everything is beyond our control.
Basically it make us human.
So don’t beat yourself too hard.
You just being you. N that not a weakness. In fact it’s a strength, because believe it or not there only one you in this world.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

Be Real!!

Some people….
“Why you like this stuff!” or “Why you dislike that stuff?”
“Why you eating this!” or “Why you don’t eating that?”
“Why you wearing this!” or “Why you don’t wearing that?”

Helloooo….
Do you think they were you or what?
You can’t expect people to like what you like and hate what you hate.
Get real here. They ain’t you. They’ve their own person. They can do whatever they want. No need to point it out if what they did didn’t tickle your fancy. 
N not everything you thought need to being said aloud.
It might hard enough for them to struggle with their own choice. They don’t need you to add the pressure.
Stop being so full of yourself. Get over it.
We’re different for a reason.
Different doesn’t make us weird. Different make us whole. You can’t expect to complete a puzzle with the same piece every time do you?

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

The Aftermath #LosingThem

Losing parent or anyone you truly love is miserable.
I wish nobody going through that heartache.
But we have to be realistic.
Sooner or later it going to happen to everyone.
It’s gonna happen to you. And it gonna happen to me. Again.
When that time comes around, i hope you know this.,
The heartache. The pain. It will never ceases.
What they said about ‘time heal everything’ ‘you going to be okay’ n stuff is one big fat lie.
No. Time doesn’t heal everything. Time just provide temporarily distraction.
And no. You not going to be okay. You just going to be strong.
Some days, yes. you going to be alright. You doesn’t feel pain as much .
That because you tend to forget about them since you just used to live your life without them.
So if you don’t remember them for a certain amount of time, don’t feel guilty. That just how you learn to cope with the pain. By forgetting. It’s doesn’t mean they’re vanished from you heart or your love for them have been disappear for good, because i can assure you it doesn’t. True love always remind.
N other times, you will remember everything and the pain become unbearable to handle.
Also stop being regretful because you feel like you not accepting your fate and move on. It’s not true. It’s has nothing to do with accepting reality, n everything to do with feeling and emotion. Which not in our control all the time.
Whatever it is, I hope you know that even if everything doesn’t feel perfect without them anymore, at the end of the day, you still gonna be alright because happiness still exist even in imperfection.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

Perfect?

We all too caught up with the idea of perfection that we can’t see anything beyond that.

Everyone always say nothing perfect.
We quite aware of that.
But we all know deep down we still wish for that perfection.

Secretly, we all dream of having a perfect life.
We search for perfect partner to getting married with.
When we have our partner, we hope to have a perfect wedding.
And then we wait for perfect perfect timing to do that.
Just like that the list go on with everything our whole life.

It consume us and when everything start crashing down and don’t go ‘perfectly’ as we plan, we keep thinking that life suck big time. When really it just you that decided to make it seem like it.

All this mindset about perfection really shouldn’t exist. Everyone should know there no such thing as perfect. The word itself doesn’t feel right.
Why not we just replace it with the word right instead?
For example, instead of saying ‘I have a perfect wife’, why don’t you say ‘I have the right wife’.
It much more meaningful when you put it that way.

Even if it not ‘Perfect ‘, it still ‘Right’. See what I trying to say? Much better don’t you think?
Now I leave it to you to decide.

Sincerly me,
Az.Ra