Another ‘me’

I don’t think I care much about how people view me. Appearance wise. How can I?
What’s the point?
If I myself doesn’t see who I like to see in me. Inner wise.
Those people will only be another ‘me’ anyway.
They will see what I see everyday in the mirror.
They will only be another additional set of my eyes.
Eyes that saw every little flaw I have.
Eyes that search for imperfections to hide.
Eyes that hold judgment for being who I am.
So isn’t it useless? To worry about what they might think when they see me?

While other people’s opinions do matter sometimes, it means nothing if my own opinion about myself has been clouded by all the insecurities I’ve been fighting with. And still am.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

Miserable Life

Life is tough isn’t it?

Sometimes you can handle it just fine. Other times? Not so much.

Invited a lot of unwanted feelings and emotions.

Which makes you doubt what you are even doing.

Or worse, think that you have an unpleasant life that will never make you happy unlike others.

But do you know? That was never true.

Yes you might have a bad day every now and then. And yes you have to work harder to improve that and be the better version of yourself when that happens, but it doesn’t mean you have a miserable life. It just means what life is supposed to be.

Living life to the fullest doesn’t always have to be about all the big deal that happens to you, it can also be about embracing and appreciating all the smallest things that bring you joy.

If the smallest thing such as the thought of having coffee every morning makes you smile, or perhaps something like the sound of the rain can automatically soothe you, I definitely can guarantee you this ; you are already living a life you should be proud of.

Big moment was great when it came, but those small moments are what give life more meaning and make life worth living.

So please realize that. Your life never can be miserable. It is all about what you decide to think and believe. After all, our mind is a very powerful thing. It can either help you or destroy you. It’s all in your control. So choose wisely.

Sincerely me,

Az.Ra

Never a priority

Ever feel like you’re not good enough?
Like you don’t seem to get anything right.
And everything you did doesn’t really matter. Because at the end of the day, you will mess that up anyway.
So it keeps nagging you everytime.
Stuck like those little pieces of gum under your shoes which you are having difficulty getting rid of.
That’s probably because it really is. The self doubt I mean.
I think it will always stay with every one of us. Literally.
We obviously will never constantly feel that every second of the day. But it definitely will make an appearance every now and then.
So what I am about to say might be helpful.
If we only give our attention to those gums only when they are stuck and we try to get rid of them, who says we can’t do the same when we feel all of those things about ourselves?
If the ‘struggle’ of removing the gums is the ONLY thing that requires our attention, that means it’s never really a priority to us.
Likewise. If the self doubt only appear every now and then, and you only focus on it only at ‘that moment’, why you’re so worry there’s something wrong with you? It’s really nothing to worry about. That feeling will comes and go as it’s please either we like it or not, but don’t give them power to corrupt your mind. The only thing you need to worry about is HOW to avoid making them as your priority in life.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

Selfish

Selfish. Always viewed as a bad trait to have.

Question is,,

Is being selfish really unnecessary?

Honest speaking,
I don’t think so. Not entirely bad at least.
Certain things require you to be selfish.
If it involves your own life, sometimes you just need to.
You can’t always put everyone first then put your own self aside.
Who says their life matters more than your own?
So, you don’t really need to feel guilty if you are being selfish for your own good.
It doesn’t turn you into a bad guy.
To a certain extent it is still OK.
Just in certain things though.
Make sure you know where it starts and where it needs to end.

Remember. Everything has a limit.

But as long as it doesn’t really have any extreme affect for those around you, I say you’re good. No worries.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

Relax!!

You think you’re confident enough. However when time comes and you have to face your audience, you’re shaking.

You think you’re brave enough to face any challenges. But when what you fear the most comes knocking, you start to hide away.

You think you’re patient enough to keep waiting. However when one by one people pass by, you start questioning why it took so long.

You think you’re happy enough with all of your achievements. But when you see others become more successful, you create another goal to achieve.

You think you’re intelligent enough to solve any problem. However when some issues arise for you to handle, you can’t find any solution to fix it.

You know what?you overthink!!
So what you say if you just stop for a second and just live in the moment. Go with the flow and have faith that life will turn out the way it is supposed to be. Not the way you want it to be.

Let life do their magic. Nothing can go wrong in the hand of fate.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

What It’s Takes

Somehow..

It take us losing someone
That makes us realize the importance of loving dearly.

It take us giving up
That makes us realize the importance of fighting back.

It take someone betrayal
That makes us realize the importance of loyalty.

It take us hurting badly
That makes us realize the importance of healing slowly.

And somehow
It take us to experiences all of that bad thing
That makes us start to appreciate the goods even more.

Just because it’s bad. Doesn’t mean it’s useless.
So, stop hating or regret every bad thing that ever happens to you.
Only because they exist, that you can see the beauty of good things.
So being thankful for everything even it was unpleasant to be though.
It’s a lesson. Not some unfairness to make your life miserable.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

Self Conscious

Looking in the mirror,
Saw your own reflection,
And having a weird feeling about it.
It’s normal isn’t it? Or not? I think it is.
At a certain point in life, I guess everyone will always find something they dislike about themselves.
It didn’t help either when people around them kept throwing a dirty look. Judging their appearance and stuff.
That’s why someone once said ‘the hardest thing to do is loving yourself’. True indeed.
But here is a secret you need to know to make it easier ; You don’t need to feel self conscious about yourself. Especially not because of people. Wanna know why? Here I tell you. They also secretly struggle with themselves.
Some day they also hate how they look.
Other days they also try so hard to look good for others.
It’s totally normal. Feeling self conscious is normal. Because You’re NORMAL.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

For Once I Wish…

They always asking me
“Are you okay”
I wish for once they ask ‘what’s wrong’ instead.

They keep saying
“You can do it”
For once I wish they would say they will help instead.

They always telling me
“Never give up”
I wish for once they told me to take a rest instead.

They keep wondering
“What wrong with her”
For once I wish they were wondering ‘why is she acting like that’ instead.

For once. Just for once. Can you not? Interpret things just the way you see fit, I mean. It is nice sometimes to look beneath the surface and see what else you can find. Someone might desperately need that from you.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

Does it?

Sometimes we hate ourselves for who we are. For who we became. Or for who we cannot be.
So what that said about us as a person for feeling that way?
Does that make us pathetic?
Or does that make us worthless?

No it doesn’t.

Feeling something negative or feeling anything at all. really. doesn’t make us anything. Feeling is just that. Only a feeling. It doesn’t define who we really are.
In fact sometimes it does make us better.
It teaches us how to love ourselves.
How to accept the fact that not everything is beyond our control.
Basically it makes us human.
So don’t beat yourself too hard.
You just being you. And that is not a weakness. In fact it’s a strength, because believe it or not there is only one you in this world.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

Freedom of Speech

You share your opinion.
You ask about your curiosity.
You voice your thoughts.
And…

People disagree with your opinion.
People question your curiosity.
People object to your thoughts.
So…

You used “freedom of speech” as an excuse to justify yourself.
Unfortunately…

You forgot to realize that true freedom of speech is everyone’s right. But it doesn’t mean that your side of speech is always right.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra