Can’t be Replaced

I already used to live my life without you in it that I never think you’re gone.
For some reason my mind keeps thinking that you’re not here only at this moment. Not ‘forever’.
I messed up, didn’t I?
For foolishly thinking someday I will see you again.
Saying our last words for each other and stuff.
I probably am.
Sometimes I keep questioning myself.
Did I think like that to hide the pain of losing you or to hide the fact that I can’t accept my reality?
Maybe both?
Either way I don’t think my train of thought will change anytime soon.
Because as much as I wish I can let you go. I don’t think I can. Ever.
After all I only got ONE Father in my lifetime.
And no man can top my love for you. That for sure.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

Never Wrong to Feel

Some day you start your morning feeling great but end it pretty badly.

Some day you start by being so happy but going to sleep feeling sad.

Some day you wake up feeling motivated to finish your work, but later turn to bed with unfinished work still.

Some day during your morning you feel grateful with how everything in your life turned out, but going to sleep questioning what you did wrong when things start to fall apart.

And somehow it is never wrong to feel all these emotions because you’re human.

Your feeling is worthy of your attention even if it is not so positive.
Never doubt that.

Just don’t drown in it for too long

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

What Goes Around Comes Around

We keep wondering how they can smile so big, we don’t seem to realize that was their way to hold themselves together from crying in tears.

We keep wondering how they’re so confident in front of others, we don’t realize that they also hide their shaking hand behind their back when nobody sees.

We keep wondering how they can have so many friends in their life, we don’t seem to realize that only a few were the real ones.

We keep wondering how they’re so successful in their career, we don’t realize that they also had to sacrifice their family time just to complete loads of work.

We just keep wondering so we forgot the fact that everything in life comes with prices. When you get some, you lose some.

You might miss the brightness of the sun during the rain, but you got to see the colourful rainbows after that instead.
Just because you don’t get what you wish doesn’t mean you won’t get what you meant to have.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

Grateful Work Wonder

When you angry with your parent because they give you advice for your own good,
Somewhere in this world, someone that loses their parents wishes they still have one.

When you complain because your parent forget to bought your favourite food,
Somewhere in this world, someone has to fast all day because they don’t have food to eat at all.

When you think life don’t treat you fair just because you can’t get your dream car to show off unlike your friends,
Somewhere in this world, someone has to walk miles in the heat just to buy groceries.

And maybe when you stop counting what you don’t have and start appreciating what you already got, you will see how lucky you already are.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

It All About You

When they say ‘stay strong’, it doesn’t mean you’re weak.

When they say ‘be brave’, it doesn’t mean you’re a coward.

When they say ‘stay happy’, it doesn’t mean you’re depressed.

When they say ‘be nice’, it doesn’t mean you’re a bad person.

Every meaning behind their words doesn’t matter. What really matters is how you decide to translate it for yourself.

You can see it as a bad thing and you will see yourself in a negative light. Or you can view it in a positive way and feel good about yourself.

It’s all in our hands. That is what makes life better. You’re the boss. Your life. Your choice.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

“Stop Trying” not entirely a bad thing

Sometimes ‘stop trying’ is not a bad thing.

It’s good sometimes to stop trying to care when they don’t even take their time long enough to appreciate it.

It is also good to stop trying to make an effort to spare their feelings when they don’t even spare a second to apologize for hurting you.

It is also a good thing to stop trying to force a conversation that you clearly know one side when we all know relationships involve both sides to make it work.

And sometime it is good to just stop trying for others and start trying for ourselves.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra