For Once I Wish…

They always asking me
“Are you okay”
I wish for once they ask ‘what’s wrong’ instead.

They keep saying
“You can do it”
For once I wish they would say they will help instead.

They always telling me
“Never give up”
I wish for once they told me to take a rest instead.

They keep wondering
“What wrong with her”
For once I wish they were wondering ‘why is she acting like that’ instead.

For once. Just for once. Can you not? Interpret things just the way you see fit, I mean. It is nice sometimes to look beneath the surface and see what else you can find. Someone might desperately need that from you.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

Does it?

Sometimes we hate ourselves for who we are. For who we became. Or for who we cannot be.
So what that said about us as a person for feeling that way?
Does that make us pathetic?
Or does that make us worthless?

No it doesn’t.

Feeling something negative or feeling anything at all. really. doesn’t make us anything. Feeling is just that. Only a feeling. It doesn’t define who we really are.
In fact sometimes it does make us better.
It teaches us how to love ourselves.
How to accept the fact that not everything is beyond our control.
Basically it makes us human.
So don’t beat yourself too hard.
You just being you. And that is not a weakness. In fact it’s a strength, because believe it or not there is only one you in this world.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

No it’s not OK

You know how when we do something but we fail and someone will tell us ‘it doesn’t matter, you can try again tomorrow’ right?
In that situation, it is supposed to motivate us to never give up.
But do you think that mindset doesn’t have any negative impacts at all?
If you think so, you are totally mistaken.
Here I tell you what. For certain people, those words are up to no good. Do you know why? Because they might take it as an excuse to slack off. To not do the best they could. They will think ‘Oh, it’s okay. I can still do my best tomorrow’.
You get what I mean right?
True, tomorrow will always come whether you like it or not. But do you know for sure that you are still here to welcome it?

So here is some advice. If you want to do something, do the best you can. That might be the only chance you have.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

Moving Forward

They ask how to move on,
He says doing this. She says doing that.
What do I have to say?
Forgive yourself.
Wanna know the reason as to why you are stuck in the past?
No. Not because of ‘it hurting too much’ bullsh*t.
And definitely not because of ‘ I’m too weak to face all of this right now’ nonsense either.
Neither is the ‘ healing take time’ concept that everyone seems to believe.
You are.
The reason you seem so oblivious is you. Yourself.
Unknowingly, you are blaming yourself right?
Wondering what you did wrong to subject yourself to such a heartbreak.
Or maybe even thinking that your imperfections are the cause of all the disasters that happen to you in your life.
Guess what honey? You are completely wrong!! They ain’t.
Life happens. It’s completely out of anyone’s control. Change your plan as you might, if the universe has another plan set for you, even if you don’t like that plan, it’s still gonna happen.
So how about start forgiving yourself. Forgive your imperfections. Forgive yourself for not being able to be who you dream yourself to be. Forgive yourself for not being able to achieve everyone’s expectations of you.
Let go of all the self blaming. Let go of all the self doubt. Just let go. Whatever that is holding you up from moving forward, let it go. And you might be surprised how good that makes you feel.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

Be Real!!

Some people….

“Why do you like this stuff!” or “Why do you dislike that stuff?”
“Why are you eating this!” or “Why don’t you eat that?”
“Why are you wearing this!” or “Why don’t you wear that?”

Helloooo….

Do you think they were you or what?
You can’t expect people to like what you like and hate what you hate.
Get real here. They ain’t you. They’ve their own person. They can do whatever they want. No need to comment on it or point it out if what they did didn’t tickle your fancy.
N not everything you thought needs to be said aloud.
It might be hard enough for them to struggle with their own choice. They don’t need you to add more.
Stop being so full of yourself. Get over it.
We’re different for a reason.
Different doesn’t make us weird. Differences make us whole. You can’t expect to complete a puzzle with the same piece every time do you?

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

Reality of Love

Love.

They say love is joy.

They think love is happiness.

They told you love is supposed to be beautiful.

But does it really?

In a fairytale..maybe.
Yes, true love is something beautiful to experience. Something that is precious to being through.
But it does not always have to be.
When it hurting you, when it getting difficult,
Doesn’t mean it’s not real.
Because love itself is life.
So just like our life that is not always beautiful and dandy, so do love.
Sometimes you get hurt.
Other times you feel over the moon.
It is supposed to.
That’s how you learn. That’s how you grow.
That’s how the universe works. After all it is not up to us to decide what happens next. It’s out of human control.
So stop being afraid you might get hurt because of it. Instead, start to embrace it while you can.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

Family

What common in family;
Saying something awful to the parents?
‘It’s not a big deal. They understand’
Doing something hurtful to our family member?
‘They will be fine. No worries’
Start a fight over something dumb?
‘No need to apologize. They will forgive us anyway’
This is where our mindset about family messes up big time I tell you.
We thought as a family member, we can do as we pleased and they will always accept us no matter what. But we completely forgot that they are still human beings. With feeling and emotion.
Being a ‘family’ doesn’t give us a free pass to treat them to our heart’s content. It only gives us a free ticket to love them unconditionally.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

You Doing Great

It’s hard isn’t it?
To live in a society that is always prejudiced and judgmental.
To always be conscious every two seconds of what they have in store for you when you make a mistake.
To take all the bad words that are being spat out from their mouth.
To see the hate in their eyes for you when they think you are doing something wrong.
As if they have a right to criticize and judge us for who we used to be.
As if they’ve perfect and haven’t done anything wrong in their life.
As if they’ve much better than anyone else.
It’s hard isn’t it?
I know. But keep going.
The reasons you exist in this world are not to please them or to meet their expectations. You are still breathing until now, not because of them. They don’t even have any significance in your life if you think about it. So keep going. Don’t give them a chance to make a choice for you. As long as you know who you are. Who you want to be. Or what you’re doing. I will say you have already achieved more than what they wish for.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

The Aftermath #LosingThem

Losing a parent or anyone you truly love is miserable.
I wish nobody would go through that heartache.
But we have to be realistic.
Sooner or later it is going to happen to everyone.
It’s gonna happen to you. And it’s gonna happen to me. Again.
When that time comes around, i hope you know this.,
The heartache. The pain. It will never stop.
What they said about ‘time heals everything’ ‘you going to be okay’ n stuff is one big fat lie.
No. Time doesn’t heal everything. Time just provides temporary distraction.
And no. You are not going to be okay. You’re just going to be strong.
Some days, yes. you’re going to be alright. You don’t feel pain as much .
That’s because you tend to forget about them since you just used to live your life without them.
So if you don’t remember them for a certain amount of time, don’t feel guilty. That’s just how you learn to cope with the pain. By forgetting. It doesn’t mean they’re vanished from your heart or your love for them has disappeared for good, because I can assure you it doesn’t. True love always stay.
Other times, you will remember everything and the pain becomes unbearable to handle.
Also stop being regretful because you feel like you are not accepting your fate and move on. It’s not true. It has nothing to do with accepting reality, and everything to do with feeling and emotion. Which is not in our control all the time.
Whatever it is, I hope you know that even if everything doesn’t feel perfect without them anymore, at the end of the day, you are still gonna be alright because happiness still exists even in imperfection.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

Tomorrow’s still an Option

Maybe now you’re hurt. But nobody says tomorrow you won’t heal.

Maybe now you’re scared. But nobody says tomorrow you can’t be brave.

Maybe now you’re sad. But nobody says tomorrow you won’t find your happiness.

Maybe now you’re struggling. But nobody says tomorrow it can’t become much easier.

Maybe now you’re alone. But nobody says tomorrow someone won’t appear in your life.

And maybe now what you really need to do is believe that everything will be alright when the time is right.

After all, everything will be alright in the end. And if everything’s not alright, it’s not the end.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra