Sad truth of growing up

She used to be some quiet girl that love and keep loving. Without a single drop of hatred.
Someone that found beauty in everyone and everything.
A girl soo pure that she might as well think everyone else as pure as herself with no bad blood in their body.
Some girl that trusting without thinking. And accepting without judgment.
She used to be all of that. Maybe even more.
But somehow she’s gone.
As day turn into months, and months pass by, replacing by years,
She saw how this world truly function.
The ugly truth that being console by her innocent all this year.
The sad reality of people in it.
So she make a choice that she never think she need to. Up until that moment.
She changes herself. To fit in.
Eventho she doesn’t have to.
As she doesn’t need anyone validation to be ‘her‘. Unfortunately, nobody tell her that.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

Miserable Life

Life is tough isn’t it?
Sometime you can handle it just fine. Other time? Not so much.
Invited lot of unwanted feeling and emotion.
Which make you doubt what you even doing.
Or worse, think that you have unpleasant life that will never make you happy unlike others.
But do you know? That never true.
Yes you might having a bad day every now and then. And yes you have to work harder to improve that and be the better version of yourself when that happen, but it doesn’t mean you have a miserable life. It’s just mean, that what life supposed to be.
Living life to the fullest doesn’t always have to be about all the big deal that happen to you, it’s can also be about embracing and appreciate all the smallest things that brings you joys.
If the smallest thing such as the thought of having coffee every morning make you smile, or perhaps something like the sound of the rain can automatically soothing you, i definitely can guarantee you this ; you already living a life you should be proud of.
Big moment was great when it’s comes, but those small moment is what give life more meaning and make life worth living.
So please realize that. Your life never can be miserable. It all about what you decide to think and believe. After all our mind is a very powerful things. It can either help you or destroy you. It’s all in your control. So choose wisely.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

Does it?

Sometimes we hate ourselves for who we are. For who we became. Or for who we cannot be.
So what that said about us as a person for feeling that way?
Does that make us pathetic?
Or does that make us worthless?

No it doesn’t.

Feeling something negative or feeling anything at all. really. doesn’t make us anything. Feeling is just that. Only a feeling. It doesn’t define who we really are.
In fact sometimes it does make us better.
It teach us how to love ourselves.
How to accept the fact that not everything is beyond our control.
Basically it make us human.
So don’t beat yourself too hard.
You just being you. N that not a weakness. In fact it’s a strength, because believe it or not there only one you in this world.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

No it’s not OK

You know how when we doing something but we fail and someone will tell us ‘it doesn’t matter, you can try again tomorrow’ right?
In that situation, it supposed to motivate us to never give up.
But do you think that mindset doesn’t have any negative impacts at all?
If you think so, you totally mistaken.
Here I tell you what. For certain people, that words up to no goods. Do you know why? Because they might take it as an excuse to slack off. To not doing the best they could. They will think ‘Oh, it’s ok. I can still do my best tomorrow’.
You get what I mean right?
True, tomorrow will always came either you like it or not. But do you know for sure that you still here to welcome it?

So here some advice. If you want to do something, do the best you could. That might be the only chance you have.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

Tomorrow’s still an Option

Maybe now you’re hurt. But nobody say tomorrow you won’t heal.

Maybe now you’re scared. But nobody say tomorrow you can’t be brave.

Maybe now you’re sad. But nobody say tomorrow you won’t find your happiness.

Maybe now you’re struggling. But nobody say tomorrow it can’t become much more easier.

Maybe now you’re alone. But nobody say tomorrow someone won’t appear in your life.

And maybe now what you really need to do is believe that everything will be alright when the time is right.

After all everything will be alright in the end. And if everything is not alright, it’s not the end.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

Perfect?

We all too caught up with the idea of perfection that we can’t see anything beyond that.

Everyone always say nothing perfect.
We quite aware of that.
But we all know deep down we still wish for that perfection.

Secretly, we all dream of having a perfect life.
We search for perfect partner to getting married with.
When we have our partner, we hope to have a perfect wedding.
And then we wait for perfect perfect timing to do that.
Just like that the list go on with everything our whole life.

It consume us and when everything start crashing down and don’t go ‘perfectly’ as we plan, we keep thinking that life suck big time. When really it just you that decided to make it seem like it.

All this mindset about perfection really shouldn’t exist. Everyone should know there no such thing as perfect. The word itself doesn’t feel right.
Why not we just replace it with the word right instead?
For example, instead of saying ‘I have a perfect wife’, why don’t you say ‘I have the right wife’.
It much more meaningful when you put it that way.

Even if it not ‘Perfect ‘, it still ‘Right’. See what I trying to say? Much better don’t you think?
Now I leave it to you to decide.

Sincerly me,
Az.Ra

Never an Option

Do you ever feeling stress and confuse to make a decision in your life?

You just sitting there,
in front of computer
feeling lose either you want to pursue study in business or law.

Or maybe,
You just staring there,
in the dark
when the world is sleeping
Undecided either you should keep fighting or call it quit already.

Or
With everything in your life. Really.

If so, you really should know this.

If you have no idea what your true choice between two option that you have, make sure to always choose the second one. After all, if you really want your first option, the second will never be an option.

Deep down,
Heart know what hearts want. Even if brain always arguing.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

Grateful Work Wonder

When you angry with your parent because they give you advice for your own good,
Somewhere in this world, someone that lose their parent wish they still have one.

When you complain because your parent forget to bought your favourite food,
Somewhere in this world, someone have to fasting all day because they doesn’t have food to eat at all.

When you think life don’t treat you fair just because you can’t get your dream car to show off unlike your friends,
Somewhere in this world, someone have to walking miles in the heat just to buy groceries.

And maybe when you stop counting what you don’t have and start appreciate what you already got, you will see how lucky you already are.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra