Never a priority

Ever feel like you’re not good enough?
Like you doesn’t seem to get anything right.
And everything you did doesn’t really matter. Because at the end of the day, you will mess that up anyway.
So it keep nagging you everytime.
Stuck like that little pieces of gums under your shoes which you having difficulty to get rid of.
That probably because it’s really is. The self doubt i mean.
I think it will always stay with every one of us. Literally.
We obviously will never constantly feel that every second of the day. But it definitely will make an appearance every now and then.
So what I about to say might be helpful.
If we only give our attention to that gums only when it stuck and we try to get rid of, who say we can’t do the same when we feel all of that things about ourselves?
If the ‘struggle’ of removing the gums is the ONLY thing that requires our attention, that mean it’s never really a priority to us.
Likewise. If the self doubt only appear every now and then, and you only focus on it only at ‘that moment’, why you’re soo worry there’s something wrong with you? It’s really nothing to worry about. That feeling will comes and go as it’s please either we like it or not, but don’t give them power to corrupt your mind. The only thing you need to worry about is  HOW to avoid making them as your priority in life.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

Relax!!

You think you’re confident enough. However when time comes and you have to facing your audience, you’re shaking.

You think you’re brave enough to face any challenges. But when what you fear the most come knocking, you start to hide away.

You think you’re patient enough to keep waiting. However when one by one people passing by, you start questioning why it took so long.

You think you’re happy enough with all of your achievement. But when you see others become more successful, you create another goal to achieve.

You think you’re intelligent enough to solve any problem. However when some issues arises for you to handle, you’re can’t find any solution to fix it.

You know what?you over think!!
So what you say if you just stop for a second and just live in the moment. Go with the flow and have faith that life will turn out the way it supposed to be. Not the way you want it to be.

Let life do their magic. Nothing can go wrong with it in the hand of fate.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

What It’s Takes

Somehow..
It take us losing someone
That make us realize the importance of loving dearly.
It take us giving up
That make us realize the importance of fighting back.
It take someone betrayal
That make us realize the importance of loyalty.
It take us hurting badly
That make us realize the importance of healing slowly.
And somehow
It take us to experiences all of that bad thing
That make us start appreciate the goods even more.
Just because it’s bad. Doesn’t mean it useless.
So, stop hating or regret every bad thing that ever happen to you.
Only because they’re exist, that you can see the beauty of good thing.
So being thankful for everything even it was unpleasant to being though.
It a lesson. Not some unfairness to make your life miserable.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

Self Conscious

Looking in the mirror,
Saw your own reflection,
And having a weird feeling about it.
It’s normal isn’t it? Or not? I think it is.
At certain point in life, I guess everyone will always found something they dislike about themselves.
It didn’t help either when people around them keep throwing a dirty look. Judging their appearance and stuff.
That why someone once say ‘the hardest thing to do is loving yourself’. True indeed.
But here a secret you need to know to make it easier ; You don’t need to feel self conscious about yourself. Especially not because of people. Wanna know why? Here I tell you. They also secretly struggle with themselves.
Some day they also hate how they look.
Other day they also try soo hard to look good for other.
It totally normal. Feeling self conscious is normal. Because You’re NORMAL.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

Does it?

Sometimes we hate ourselves for who we are. For who we became. Or for who we cannot be.
So what that said about us as a person for feeling that way?
Does that make us pathetic?
Or does that make us worthless?

No it doesn’t.

Feeling something negative or feeling anything at all. really. doesn’t make us anything. Feeling is just that. Only a feeling. It doesn’t define who we really are.
In fact sometimes it does make us better.
It teach us how to love ourselves.
How to accept the fact that not everything is beyond our control.
Basically it make us human.
So don’t beat yourself too hard.
You just being you. N that not a weakness. In fact it’s a strength, because believe it or not there only one you in this world.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

No it’s not OK

You know how when we doing something but we fail and someone will tell us ‘it doesn’t matter, you can try again tomorrow’ right?
In that situation, it supposed to motivate us to never give up.
But do you think that mindset doesn’t have any negative impacts at all?
If you think so, you totally mistaken.
Here I tell you what. For certain people, that words up to no goods. Do you know why? Because they might take it as an excuse to slack off. To not doing the best they could. They will think ‘Oh, it’s ok. I can still do my best tomorrow’.
You get what I mean right?
True, tomorrow will always came either you like it or not. But do you know for sure that you still here to welcome it?

So here some advice. If you want to do something, do the best you could. That might be the only chance you have.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

Take Your Time

All of us have a dream right?
In order to achieve this dream, some of us working their butt of like there’s no tomorrow.
Some doesn’t even care to spare 5 minutes of their time to have a meal.
Others, keep rushing to finish their work that they completely forgot to sleep.
In a way, it’s good to be passion towards your goals.
But I keep wondering what the point  of working too hard and getting sick later on? Is it worth it?
Even when you succeed in achieving what you aim for, do you really think you can enjoy your victory while being unhealthy? Probably not.
So please please please! Take care of yourself.
Life is all about balance. Working hard? That great. But don’t do that while ignoring yourself. Stay safe.
There more unexpected joy waiting for you to embrace.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

Moving Forward

They ask how to move on,
He say doing this. She say doing that.
What I have to say?
Forgive yourself.
Wanna know the reason as why you stuck in the past?
No. Not because of ‘it hurting too much’ bullsh*t.
And definitely not because of ‘ I’m too weak to face all of this right now’ nonsense either.
Neither are ‘ heeling take time’ concept that everyone seem to believe.
You are.
The reason you seems so oblivious of is you. Yourself.
Unknowingly, you blaming yourself right?
Wondering what you did wrong to subject yourself to such a heartbreak.
Or maybe even thinking that your imperfections is the cause of all the disaster that happen to you in your life.
Guess what honey? You completely wrong!! They ain’t.
Life happen. It’s completely out of anyone control. Change your plan as you might, if universe have another plan set for you, even if you don’t like that plan, it’s still gonna happen.
So how about start forgiving yourself. Forgive your imperfections. Forgive yourself for not being able to be who you dream yourself to be. Forgive yourself for not being able to achieve everyone expectations of you.
Let go all the self blaming. Let go of all the self doubt. Just let go. Whatever that holding you up from moving forward, let it go. And you might be surprised how good that make you feel.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

Reality of Love

Love.
They say love is joy.
They think love is happiness.
They told you love supposed to be beautiful.
But does it really?
In fairytale..maybe.
Yes, true love is something beautiful to experiences. Something that precious to being through.
But it not always have to be.
When it hurting you, when it getting difficult,
Doesn’t meant it’s not real.
Because love itself is life.
So just like our life that not always beautiful and dandy, so do love.
Sometimes you getting hurt.
Others time you feel over the moon.
It supposed to.
That how you learn. That how you grow.
That how universe work. After all it not up to us to decide what happen next. Its out of human control.
So stop being afraid you might getting hurt because of it. Instead, start to embrace it while you can.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra

Family

What common in family;
Saying something awful to the parents?
‘ It’s not a big deal. They understand ‘
Doing something hurtful to our family member?
‘ They will be fine. No worries ‘
Start a fight over something dumb?
‘ No need to apologize. They will forgive us anyway ‘
This is where our mindset about family mess up big time I tell you.
We thought as a family member, we can do as we pleased and they will always accept us no matter what. But we completely forgot  that they still a human being. With feeling and emotion.
Being a ‘family’ doesn’t give us free pass to treat them as our heart content. It only give us free ticket to love them unconditionally.

Sincerely me,
Az.Ra